i don't know

at this point in time, i just don't know
someone asked me today
how is it

and i simply have to say
i don't know

life is not bad
but i can't say life is incredibly exciting

i can say God is good
but that is it

i don't know where i am going
but He does

i don't know how i will make it
but He does

i don't have the strength to go on
but He does

i don't have the love to share to all those around
but He does

i don't understand what is going on in the world
but He does

i don't know how to change the world
but He does

i'm so glad He does, especially when i don't

only Him

i have completed the first week of student teaching in kindergarten
in this place i see the need for love
and i love as best is professionally allowed

but is that enough

i see their faces light up
as they can finally spell there name
after seeing the "trick" to writing an "e" to finish their name

i see their faces light up as they finally
can finish a puzzle on their own
i told them they could- they just didn't believe it

but that is not enough

they need that love
that only He can offer

they need the strength to go on
knowing they can do anything
that only He can offer

so what can i do

i teach them how to tie their shoes
i sing with them songs about colors
and shine as best as i can to show them they need

Him

what else can i do

Part of a superchick song... stuck in my head

"this is my last verse and its for everyone feeling not so great today.
We don't know what's coming just around the bend.
Always hard to believe in your own life,
its easier to find belief for a friend.
A hope for you and for me and together we can say...
It'll be Okay!"

friends are so worth having

They hate you.

Yesterday I was talking with someone about wanting to go to the middle east and learning the language and culture and you know just being a light, when the person I was talking to said... "why? you know that they hate you, right?"

This question has thus been one I have been pondering... not in a good or bad way persay, just pondering- you know.

The thing is, is that I know that to an extent it is true... yet at the same time I know that I love the people, and frankly I don't really care that they hate...me?! Because they don't even know me, which I think exactly correlates with Christianity as well. More than just people of other religions, but even people who at one time called themselves Christians... some say that they hate God, but they don't even know Him, and yet He loves them because they are His children. The cool thing is that only being in a relationship with God will fill that eternity gap within their being, so not matter what people do to try and feel complete, they wont until they find Him and His love and truly become THE Beloved.

So, why do I want to go to a place where it is said they hate me? Again, as I typed that, I thought of Christ... Could you imagine Christ in the days leading up to Him going down to the earth, think of the critical angels(yeah right, I'm sure they didn't think like this- but its kind of entertaining to think about)

Angel: "Dude, Jesus, why do you have to go- especially down there? You know they hate you right? You know they are just going to kill you, spit on you, and even those you call friends will deny you..."

Jesus: "Yeah, but their my brothers, and I love them. What am I supposed to do, just let them go to hell? I don't care what they do to me as long as they realize what they're missing out on and they know that Dad's just waiting for them to come home... Besides you realize that death can't hold me down, right? I get to RISE UP... man that'll be cool, can you imagine the look on those people's faces- ha... it'll be sweet!"

Okay, so I doubt they talk like that or ever had a conversation like that, but if you think about it its kind of true...

AND Matthew 25:14 says "And this gospel will be preached in ALL the world as a witness to all the nations, and then the end will come." MAN, I want to go home... riding on the clouds at the trumpets call... so I'm gonna do something about it... I'm going to help preach the this gospel to ALL the world and just in case you didn't know the 10/40 on a map is the area in which there are the most unreached people IN the entire world... So that's were I'm going to go- whether they hate me and my God or not... when they really get to know us... I know they'll love us!

So these were just my thoughts for today... Right now I'm looking out my window at a parked white van with someone in it.... thats kind of weird... anyway, as you can tell I'm not staying focused very well, but if anyone reads this if you don't understand or think I'm crazy- it's okay with me, but if you would like clarification, let me know... I like talking, especially about Jesus!

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At School...

So I have returned to the WU... right now it is very quiet as not very many people are here yet, but I find it very relaxing. This summer wasn't uptight or anything, but I enjoy having the chill time with the Lord, the uncluttered and uneventful times just chillaxin' you know. I like it. I do miss my family and friends already, but as most of you know this will be my last year here, the senior- I know... bittersweet. So, what then you may ask, well, I am asking the same question, but not with anxiousness, I know this is where the Lord has brought me thus far and I have no reason in my entire thinking to doubt the one and only faithful One! So now, we may ask Him together what's next for Kallie? Some have given me suggestions, but so far the Lord has not confirmed or denied any such planning of any sort. I say "well, I have loans to pay off," but then He reminds me that He is not only the God of the heavens and earth but also of my finances, so all of my options are wide open. All I know is that He is good and following His ways thus far have not been disappointing one bit. Man, I love knowing the Lord, it is just refreshing that I don't have to worry about what life holds, because I know the One who holds life. Peace just over whelms me as I think of what an amazing God I have and that He is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all that I can ask or think... aahh I like that!

sweet prayer...

"Christ shield me today against poison,
against burning,
against drowning,
against wounding,
so that there may come to me abundance of reward,
Christ with me,
Christ before me,
Christ behind me,
Christ in me,
Christ beneath me,
Christ above me,
Christ on my right,
Christ on my left,
Christ when I lie down,
Christ when I arise,
Christ in the quiet,
Christ in danger,
Christ in the heart of every man who thinks of me,
Christ in the mouth of every man who speaks of me,
Christ in the every eye that sees me,
Christ in every ear that hears me!"

-Patrick
(Ireland's Missionary aka saint patrick)

hmmm

I am eating leftover potato casserole right now at school... God bless Roomate's Family (leftover suppliers). Besides that, this is the dl:
class
work
study for class and clep
take clep
go to class
then...
go on an amazing weekend "picture" extraveganza with Jeni!
hmmm... life is so interesting sometimes...

Sad days...

So I had all of these SWEET pictures to share with you, but I couldn't find my cord to get them all off my camera, but then I took my camera with me to a concert and it uh... got stolen... so now it is sad days because you and I can't look at all the sweet pictures I had, man, sometimes it sucks. But its cool, just a little reminder NOT to put too much value in the material things of life... right?!

Anyway, May term has begun, its been pretty fun. It is cool because I have a class I'm taking I'm working, but don't feel like I have even 1/2 the pressure I had during the school year, yikes... am I glad for that!

It's been fun though, I've had the opportunity to hang out with friends alot and with Jeni's family- who extremely cool... yeah, they kind of make fun of me, but honestly- that makes it even more fun... I love sarcasm!

I DO however, miss my family and friends at home quite a bit, but the longer I am away the more awesome the reunion always is! I can't wait to give my Mom a hug, it'll be nice! I seriously am going to live up this Summer for all it has though because... THIS IS MY LAST SUMMER AS A COLLEGE STUDENT!!!! AAAAAAAAH! Isn't that scary? I think so, but I guess it had to happen sometime.

OK, and update on the student teaching thing... I am not student teaching overseas, but wait... its okay. If you would have told me this three months ago I would have said- yeah right! But things were difficult in finding a place to go and everyone else had somewhere to go, yet I didn't, and there was no one to go with me, so this limited my going as well, but then I was asked if I would lead a missions trip and be on WCF (World Christian Fellowship) cabinet. This confirmed for me that these were reasons for me to stay here in the states during spring student teaching. Begin praying about the trip I am leading... I am very excited and can't wait to pour my heart into something as amazing as this!!!!

Anyway, that's about it for now, hopefully I will have some times later to catch up with you (whoever that may be) later... call me- I seriously have time to talk on the phone now!!!!!

Peace
KG if fosheezzy fojeezy

Harvey Family Picture

Madison, Hollie, Joel, and Bill!

I know I have a beautiful family, what can I say, God has blessed us in this area!

Free at last... or not so much

This semester is FINALLY over... it has been long and sometimes tough... but it was good. THe only thing is that I still am not coming home for about a month... yes, you heard me right. I will be staying here for May Term as well, yeah- but hey I'll be graduating on time- so you can't ask for much more! So this time freshmen year my friends and I were screamingaith DC Talk at the top of our lungs, free at last... now, I'm preparing for my next class... but I will have more free time so that will be nice. Call me sometime and we should catch up! I love you all!
Kallie G.

What does it mean?

This is what a sign in our library says... but what does, especially the 3rd one, mean?

Ours to fight for:
Freedom of Speech
Freedom of Religion
Freedom from want
Freedom from fear

What does that mean I should be doing about it?

my heart sings

Take My Life
------Chris Tomlin
Take my life and let it be
consecrated to Thee.
Take my moments and my days,
let them flow in ceaseless praise.
Take my hands and let them move
at the impulse of Thy love.
Take my feet and let them be
swift and beautiful for Thee.
Take my voice and let me sing
always, only for my King.
Take my lips and let them be
filled with messages from Thee.
Take my silver and my gold
not a mite would I withhold.
Take my intellect and use
every power as You choose.
::Chorus::
Here am I, all of me.
Take my life, it's all for Thee.
Take my will and make it Thine
it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart it is Thine own
it shall be Thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord I pour
at Your feet its treasure store
Take myself and I will be
ever, only, all for Thee.
Here am I, all of me.
Take my life, it's all for Thee
.x3
(Take my life, Lord take my life. Take all of me)
Here am I, all of me.Take my life, it's all for Thee.

Faithfulness

Great is Thy faithfulness
Great is Thy faithfulness
Morning by morning new mercies I see
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided
Great is Thy faithfulness
Lord unto Thee

Sometimes His ways are NOT our ways
Although they should be

But His ways are The Way

Man, I wish I would just trust Him the way He is meant to be trusted

I wish I would Hear him the way He should be heard

I wish I could follow Him the way I should follow

He is worthy

He is Faithful

and yet I complain and cry and remain where I am

Lord, let me TRUST You

Let me know You

Let me be Consumed in YOU!

Just Sing

spring .....................................grace
green .......................................peace
and o how beautiful it is ..............and o how beautiful they are

cold ..........................................sinful
windy.........................................angry
but o how beautiful it is ..............but o how beautiful they are

Step by step

Another day... oh how wonderful it is to know that His mercies are new every morning.
Thank you Lord for your grace, for your unfailing love, and the TRUTH that you so wonderfully plant in every breathe that we take. We are your children, we are your hands, we are Yours.

Be with us Lord, let every breathe we take and single thing that we do and think of reflect You!

I love You...

Quotes from the Lo

"Never let other's small thinking change who you are and will become."

"Do not limit yourself to the way others view you."

"I know what we can do, lets get 100 people together to go and toilet paper their house!"

"Live as closely to others as possible... a simple and incarnational life is what Christ has called us to."

"Hold on to your convictions, you must submit, but that will not change who you are."

The inspiring and gentle words of the wonderful Umfundisi Lo... I'll miss you man!

The Lord's Plans...

The Lord’s plans will succeed.
Those who oppose God will fall.

As I read the above words tonight, I couldn't but help to be encouraged. Some would assume that this two-liner is a strong "watch out" reminder, but when I read these words, I can't help but have a smile of HOPE creep across my face.

In recent times I have been told by some that there are certain things I "can't" do, or I am not cut out for. In my mind, I have tendencies to argee with these statements. But then, there is this incredible burst in my spirit that says what I am hearing is nothing but a LIE.

My heart has been troubled by these "discouraging" words, but not because they were said, but because they were pointed at the plans that the Lord has set for my life. There are certain undeniable plans that the Lord has set before me that no-thing or person can or ever will stop... no one that, is except me.

The reason these words are so slicing is because I know that when words discourage me, there is something that begins to tear at the TRUTHS that God has put in me. I am the only one that can disrupt the plans of God for my life, but the words of others inevitively will have an effect on me as a human. However, my willingness and obedience will be what makes the final decision in the accomplishment of what God has aligned for me and my future.

So all that to say... the Lord's plan will succeed!

Don't believe the lies that the world and Satan try to sell you. Listen to the words of Christ. You can do it... You are loved... You are healed... and You are Saved!

In the mean time don't worry about the standards and evaluation of those who are around you, but remember... you are not here to please the people of this world, or yourself... but you are to GLORIFY GOD! That's all He wants of you! He never said that people would know you are a Christian by the clothes that you wear or the scriptures that you quote or the big words that you say, but that "they will know you by your fruit." Can people see your fruit? Can they see the Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, and Self-Control flowing from your life? Maybe we should re-think our approach to life...

Oh, how great He is truly is... how amazing is His love... He never FAILS!!!!!!

Trip to Mississippi

Check out my thoughts about my trip to Mississippi on my Missions blog at www.esperanzamissions.blogspot.com
There are a lot of things that I am still not quite sure I processed as I have returned from this trip. All we can is pray. Pray that people will be able to go where they are needed, that the church may glorify Him more and more with each day that passes. That the people of Mississippi will not quickly forget about how precious life is... and truly sing to the Lord:
Everyday it's You I live for
Everyday I'll follow after You
Everyday I'll walk with You my Lord

Going to Mississippi...

So, I think I'm about ready. I've been getting ready all evening to go on the mission trip to MISSISSIPPI! I am quite excited. I don't have any particular expectations, just that this is what God wants us to do, and He will make it amazing! So, I'll let you know what happens. We leave tomorrow morning at 5:30 AM. that is in 5 hours from now. I'm pretty energized... which I wish I was earlier today when I was with 20 first graders, but at least I'll do what I need to do!

Well, keep us all in your prayers!

Leaders: Cat and Phil
Members: Nick, Grant, Autumn, Jocelyn, Marissa, Lauren, and Me (Kallie G.)

I love you all... and you remain in my prayers as well!