sometimes i just get frustrated
why do all the little things roll off easy somedays and other days... they just don't
I honestly think that had anger earlier today at an unhealthy level
why
because I was being treated like a stupid child who doesn't know what responsibility is or how to email for that fact
i know who i am, so why does this type of thing anger me so?
Lord help me.
teach me.
I don't understand, but God please let me be the servant and the Lover that above all else shows and shines for you...
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Saturday, October 14, 2006
purity unlike we've thought
In the blog below I wrote out this sweet story I heard the other night at World Christian Fellowship. I know it was long, but how amazing this man's sacrifice is.
The funny thing is this guy who became a christian in prison didn't even understand why he loved this women so much. He also didn't understand why he would want to wait for her. He explained his perdicament to the missionary and she explained it was because of the Lord.
You see God is so pure that we can't but help it but to be so as well. Obviously, this is not always the case for all Christian, but for this man it was true. He was never taught directly that he had to love the mother of his children, he was never told the he would be a BAD person for marrying a different women. Yet, he holds out. He wont even kiss, or hold hands, or do anything else with this women, until she marries him.
And though she has left him at the altar, after he has paid this incredibly high price, he still longs for the day that he will be united with her.
In one sense it makes me SICK to think that the level of purity that we hold in most churches in the U.S. is very low if existant at all.
How far is too far?
Well, we didn't actually do anything really bad.
Things like this make me sick.
Not because I think all Christians should be HOLY and RIGHTEOUS and if you don't your going to hell... that is the opposite of what I am saying. I am saying GOd has done sooooo much for us and He loves us so much, but we don't feel this has any direct correlation to exactly how we should live.
We are the bride of Christ. He has called on us. He has paid the price and yet we deny Him. All He wants to do is love us, and yet He stands at the altar waiting.
So, maybe you think this is extreme in thought, but is reality... how true is it?
As a part of the body of Christ we should be reflecting the purity of the one that lives within us. Yet, honoring the Lord with every part of our life seems to be too much for some of us. Being different from the world in everything just seems a little too extreme. But explain to me this- how will we be recognized as different if we never become different? How will the world know we have something more, if we never do?
Hang out with Him, cos when you do you'll become like Him!
The funny thing is this guy who became a christian in prison didn't even understand why he loved this women so much. He also didn't understand why he would want to wait for her. He explained his perdicament to the missionary and she explained it was because of the Lord.
You see God is so pure that we can't but help it but to be so as well. Obviously, this is not always the case for all Christian, but for this man it was true. He was never taught directly that he had to love the mother of his children, he was never told the he would be a BAD person for marrying a different women. Yet, he holds out. He wont even kiss, or hold hands, or do anything else with this women, until she marries him.
And though she has left him at the altar, after he has paid this incredibly high price, he still longs for the day that he will be united with her.
In one sense it makes me SICK to think that the level of purity that we hold in most churches in the U.S. is very low if existant at all.
How far is too far?
Well, we didn't actually do anything really bad.
Things like this make me sick.
Not because I think all Christians should be HOLY and RIGHTEOUS and if you don't your going to hell... that is the opposite of what I am saying. I am saying GOd has done sooooo much for us and He loves us so much, but we don't feel this has any direct correlation to exactly how we should live.
We are the bride of Christ. He has called on us. He has paid the price and yet we deny Him. All He wants to do is love us, and yet He stands at the altar waiting.
So, maybe you think this is extreme in thought, but is reality... how true is it?
As a part of the body of Christ we should be reflecting the purity of the one that lives within us. Yet, honoring the Lord with every part of our life seems to be too much for some of us. Being different from the world in everything just seems a little too extreme. But explain to me this- how will we be recognized as different if we never become different? How will the world know we have something more, if we never do?
Hang out with Him, cos when you do you'll become like Him!
to do things in purity
Colombia
Prison
He was a bad man
killing
hurting
stealing
gangs
drugs
just a normal part of his life
Therefore
Prison
Good? or Bad?
3 days into being in Prison
He finds something
something he would have never found outside
Hope
Life
Christ
Prison life is hard
He lives in the second most violent prison in the country
On average 17 men a day die
in this prison
But there is a Bible Institute
He changes
He loves
He hopes
He knows the Truth
14 years later
He's out
The first thing he wants to do: is marry the Mother of his children
He loves her soooooooooooo much
He's not exactly sure why... but he loves her
She denies him
Yet, he is persistent
Yet, he waits
It doesn't make sense
He has been in prison for a VERY long time
but he has decided that he will not do anything
until he marries his love
He asks her again
Denying himself any pleasure
Anything she wants to give him right now
He says... I want to marry you
She agrees
In Colombia in order to "legally" marry
the husband must first present to the money to the courts
an outrageous amount of money
When accepted he must them bring in the bride
To make the commitment final
He pays
He calls on his bride to come
She does not answer his call
Time is up... the money is lost
Once again he finds his bride
O, how he loves her
Please, marry me
I love you
Wont you love me?
she agrees
He pays
He calls on his bride to come
She does not answer his call
Yet he still waits... he waits on his bride
He has no option but to remain pure
He will not give up
No matter how long he must wait
He will continue to pay and continue to wait
Prison
He was a bad man
killing
hurting
stealing
gangs
drugs
just a normal part of his life
Therefore
Prison
Good? or Bad?
3 days into being in Prison
He finds something
something he would have never found outside
Hope
Life
Christ
Prison life is hard
He lives in the second most violent prison in the country
On average 17 men a day die
in this prison
But there is a Bible Institute
He changes
He loves
He hopes
He knows the Truth
14 years later
He's out
The first thing he wants to do: is marry the Mother of his children
He loves her soooooooooooo much
He's not exactly sure why... but he loves her
She denies him
Yet, he is persistent
Yet, he waits
It doesn't make sense
He has been in prison for a VERY long time
but he has decided that he will not do anything
until he marries his love
He asks her again
Denying himself any pleasure
Anything she wants to give him right now
He says... I want to marry you
She agrees
In Colombia in order to "legally" marry
the husband must first present to the money to the courts
an outrageous amount of money
When accepted he must them bring in the bride
To make the commitment final
He pays
He calls on his bride to come
She does not answer his call
Time is up... the money is lost
Once again he finds his bride
O, how he loves her
Please, marry me
I love you
Wont you love me?
she agrees
He pays
He calls on his bride to come
She does not answer his call
Yet he still waits... he waits on his bride
He has no option but to remain pure
He will not give up
No matter how long he must wait
He will continue to pay and continue to wait
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
To glorify God...
So today I had a nice conversation with the Lord, because I was confused about the way things happen sometimes. The way that some people die... and it doesn't seem like they should, or others live and are healed of miniscule problems that they could have lived with... because, you see, I know that my God is AMAZING and ALL POWERFUL, but in those times when things just don't seem right, I feel as if it just doesn't calculate properly.
So today in chapel a girl spoke of how her brother (BJ), 15 years old, who died last year after acquiring a disease on a mission trip in Peru. It was sad to say the least. Obviously my mind thinks- wow, if God would have healed him, God would have been glorified in the process. I continued thinking in this manner because this young man in just the two summers he had gone on mission trips had been obedient to the Lord and seen people come to the Lord, how many more people could have come to know the Lord, as their personal savior, if he were still here today?
So as I walked back to my townhouse, I just felt unsettled. But that is when the Lord spoke to me. You see, God is all powerful and He knows the plans He has... and in the end He WILL BE GLORIFIED. No matter how rank things look, no matter how impossibly against the will of God things may seem- He WILL be GLORIFIED! You see, this young man was a great evangelist, but God knows that through the death of BJ that 29 more great evangelist now have committed themselves to the cause for Christ after seeing the courage that BJ had in knowing and trusting that no matter what happened to him and his life- that God would be glorified. He wasn't worried about himself, but rather that God would be glorified through him in the best way possible, and God remained faithful!
This is still something that I totally don't understand, but I do have more peace about circumstances like this... yeah I still question and seek to know answers, but that is what is so cool about my God- He answers me when I call, and meets me when I seek Him. Don't forget to that this week... seek Him, call on Him, and just spend time with Him!
So today in chapel a girl spoke of how her brother (BJ), 15 years old, who died last year after acquiring a disease on a mission trip in Peru. It was sad to say the least. Obviously my mind thinks- wow, if God would have healed him, God would have been glorified in the process. I continued thinking in this manner because this young man in just the two summers he had gone on mission trips had been obedient to the Lord and seen people come to the Lord, how many more people could have come to know the Lord, as their personal savior, if he were still here today?
So as I walked back to my townhouse, I just felt unsettled. But that is when the Lord spoke to me. You see, God is all powerful and He knows the plans He has... and in the end He WILL BE GLORIFIED. No matter how rank things look, no matter how impossibly against the will of God things may seem- He WILL be GLORIFIED! You see, this young man was a great evangelist, but God knows that through the death of BJ that 29 more great evangelist now have committed themselves to the cause for Christ after seeing the courage that BJ had in knowing and trusting that no matter what happened to him and his life- that God would be glorified. He wasn't worried about himself, but rather that God would be glorified through him in the best way possible, and God remained faithful!
This is still something that I totally don't understand, but I do have more peace about circumstances like this... yeah I still question and seek to know answers, but that is what is so cool about my God- He answers me when I call, and meets me when I seek Him. Don't forget to that this week... seek Him, call on Him, and just spend time with Him!
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